How It Feels When You Try to Commit Suicide?

Lonare
4 min readApr 4, 2024

I am not proud of it… but it has happened.

I didn’t want to write about it. But what else I could do. I don't have many friends and I feel lonely.

So I decided to write about it.

You can judge me, call names. But I do not care any more.

Photo by Eva Blue on Unsplash

So, picture this: you’re feeling like life just punched you in the gut, hard. Everything seems pointless, and you’re drowning in a sea of hopelessness.

It’s like the weight of the world is sitting on your shoulders, and you can’t shake it off no matter how hard you try.

And let’s not even get started on the loneliness.

You’re surrounded by people, but you might as well be on a deserted island. Nobody gets it. Nobody sees the storm raging inside your head.

Inside, it’s like a constant tug of war.

Part of you is screaming to escape the pain, to just end it all and make it stop.

“Loneliness is my least favorite thing about life. That thing that I’m most worried about is just being alone without anybody to care for or someone who will care for me.” — Anne Hathaway

But then there’s this tiny voice, barely a whisper, that’s begging you to hold on, to give life another shot.

Oh, and the guilt? Yeah, that’s a fun one.

You feel like you’re letting everyone down, like you’re a burden that nobody wants to deal with.

It eats away at you, making you feel even more worthless.

“The most terrible poverty is loneliness and the feeling of being unloved.” — Mother Teresa

But here’s the thing — even in the darkest moments, there’s a flicker of hope. Maybe it’s reaching out to a friend, finally admitting that you’re not okay.

Or maybe it’s picking up the phone and calling a hotline, just to hear a friendly voice on the other end.

Look, I get it. It’s tough. But there’s help out there, real help from people who understand what you’re going through.

So, if you’re feeling like you’re at the end of your rope, reach out. Talk to someone.

Because even in the darkest night, there’s a glimmer of light waiting to guide you home.

You’re not alone, and you deserve a chance to see tomorrow.

“Music was my refuge. I could crawl into the space between the notes and curl my back to loneliness.” — Maya Angelou

Photo by Barry Weatherall on Unsplash

Here’s a list of services in the UK that offer support and assistance for individuals struggling with feelings of loneliness:

  1. The Silver Line: A helpline specifically for older adults, providing information, friendship, and advice 24/7. Website: https://www.thesilverline.org.uk/
  2. Age UK: Offers various services including befriending services, social activities, and local support groups for older people. Website: https://www.ageuk.org.uk/
  3. Mind: A mental health charity that offers information, support, and advice on a wide range of mental health issues, including loneliness. Website: https://www.mind.org.uk/
  4. Samaritans: Provides confidential emotional support for individuals experiencing feelings of distress or despair, including loneliness. They offer a helpline that’s open 24/7. Website: https://www.samaritans.org/
  5. Campaign to End Loneliness: A national network of organizations and individuals working to combat loneliness, offering resources, information, and support. Website: https://www.campaigntoendloneliness.org/
  6. Re-engage (formerly Contact the Elderly): Organizes social gatherings and events for older people, providing opportunities for companionship and friendship. Website: https://www.reengage.org.uk/
  7. Local Community Centers and Libraries: Many local community centers and libraries offer social activities, clubs, and groups where people can connect with others in their community.
  8. Volunteering Opportunities: Volunteering can be a great way to combat loneliness by connecting with others while making a positive impact in your community. Websites like Do-It (https://do-it.org/) can help you find volunteering opportunities in your area.
  9. Local Support Groups: There may be local support groups or organizations in your area specifically dedicated to addressing loneliness. These can often be found through online searches or by contacting local councils or charities.
  10. Online Communities and Forums: Online platforms such as forums, social media groups, or virtual support groups can provide a sense of connection and belonging for those experiencing loneliness. Websites like Meetup (https://www.meetup.com/) can help you find local groups and events based on your interests.

Remember, reaching out for support is a courageous step, and there are people and resources available to help you through feelings of loneliness.

Don’t hesitate to reach out and connect with others who can offer support and companionship.

Also, I am happy to have a chat anytime you want. Just head to my website and hit the chat icon.

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Lonare

Imagination is the key to unlock the world. I am trying to unlock mine.